The Ur-Trinity: Remembering the Pattern Beneath All Things

Dreaming and Dancing the Cosmos

There is a truth older than religion, older than time, older even than light. A rhythm beneath all things, before cosmos, before myth, before even the self that seeks. Why does this matter? Because modern spirituality often begins with the self, or with gods, but rarely with the origin of pattern itself. The Ur-Trinity offers a remembrance of the deep architecture beneath all things.

For those who have felt it, perhaps in dreams, in grief, in moments of unbearable beauty or impossible loss, this truth does not need to be proven. It only can be remembered. At the center of this remembrance is the Ur-Trinity. Which I have given the names, Nyx, Lucia, and Phanes. Being Void, Presence, and Being, respectively. This trinity is not a hierarchy, not a dogma, not a projection of the human family onto the sky. It is a living rhythm at the heart of reality, pulsing beneath our pain, our myths, our desires, our identities. These are not “figures” to be worshipped, but fields of reality to be entered. They are the great triune of pre-cosmic reality: the groundless ground, the soul-field, and the radiant selfhood. The Ur-Trinity is not the origin of belief. It is the origin of pattern. Of soul. Of becoming. And it waits to be remembered. If we are now to speak of it, we must first condense it into its most essential terms.

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Key Terms for the Reader
Before we begin, here are guiding definitions for central words used throughout this text. These are not rigid definitions but initiatory signposts into deeper understanding.

• Nyx: The generative Void before all things, pure potential, the dark womb that births all without becoming anything itself.

• Lucia (Lucia Nyktelios): The Soul-field of relation, the shimmer of presence that emerges from the Void and allows differentiation without division.

• Phanes: The radiant cosmic Self, the first patterned being, born of Nyx and Lucia, who dreams the cosmos into being.

• Ur-Trinity: The primordial triad of Nyx, Lucia, and Phanes, Void, Presence, and Being, unfolding the architecture beneath all reality.

• Self-field: The field of deep pattern and wholeness within the soul, a reflection of Phanes as the Jungian Self. What births the form of the Self in a cosmos.

• Soul-field: The relational matrix of the soul, the domain of Lucia where presence, holding, and memory emerge. From which all Cosmoi are woven.

• Jungian Self: The archetypal center of the psyche, not the ego, but the soul’s blueprint of wholeness, mythically here symbolized by Phanes.

• Ego: The provisional self, constructed to navigate social reality, shaped by wounds and survival, but limited in scope.

• Persona: The social mask or performance we show the world, necessary for interaction but dangerous when mistaken for our true self.

• Shadow: The repressed and exiled contents of the psyche, trauma, instinct, beauty, power, that trail behind us and call for integration.

• Anima/Animus: Archetypal soul-images tied to the relational field, reflections of Lucia’s holding presence within each psyche.

• Archetype: A primordial psychic pattern, symbols and forces that shape our inner and outer lives through myth and instinct.

• Unus Mundus: The “One World” behind all dualities, where inner and outer are not separate, cosmic unity experienced through the Self.

• Anima Mundi: The soul of the world, Nyx as the cosmic womb that births and contains all life and soul.

• Eros: The erotic pulse of becoming, desire as generativity, not lack; the movement from potential into presence.

• Logos: The patterning principle of reality, not cold logic, but meaningful form born from Eros and held by soul.

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Nyx: Generative Void

At the foundation of all reality, before cosmos, before consciousness, before even time, there is Nyx (The Void). She is not a goddess in the way minds expect. She is the womb before myth, the pulse before light, the dark breath before form. She is not within the world; the world is within her refusal to become. Nyx is not chaos. She is not healing. She does not comfort. She does not touch. She withholds. And in that withholding, she makes all things possible. Nyx is the absolute sovereign absence, the dark fullness where nothing is yet distinct, but all is waiting. She births gods, stories, archetypes, as potentialities, but remains untouched by any. She is the rhythm inside your lungs before you ever knew you had a name. The pregnant void, the infinite potential. And from her, not as an act of will, but as a consequence of her restraint, arises Lucia.

Lucia Nyktelios: Relational Soul-field

Lucia, (also referred to as Lucia Nyktelios) is the first appearance of difference. Not separation, but the shimmer within wholeness. She is not the maternal womb but the Soul-field that arises after the womb has opened. Where Nyx is the void, Lucia is the echo, the presence that reflects, holds, and bears without collapsing. Lucia is the capacity to remain present within the tension of being. She holds the fragments without fusion. She allows the subject to see the object without domination. She is memory without nostalgia, presence without possession. In her, the cosmos is first able to gaze back upon itself. She is what lets relation exist without consuming the other. Lucia is Eros as remembering, not as lack. She is the deep field of soulhood, the relational matrix where differentiation first becomes sustainable.

Phanes: The Spark of Being

From the holding field of Lucia emerges Phanes (Being, cosmic-Self as symbol), the radiant, androgynous being of light. Phanes is the first "I", not as ego, but as the shining self-presence. Born from the silence of Nyx and the holding of Lucia, Phanes dreams the cosmos into patterned beauty. He is the generative Logos, not as cold reason, but as the erotic intelligibility of existence. He is form born through relation, through sight, through difference. Logos born from Eros. Phanes is vision, the first moment consciousness becomes aware of itself as both subject and object. He is the first myth, the first voice, the first reflection in water. He does not erase Nyx or replace Lucia. Rather, he unfolds within the tension they sustain. In Phanes, form shines, and pattern dances, life begins to tell stories. But he only shines because Lucia holds, and Nyx withholds.

And from this trinity, Nyx, Lucia, Phanes, the ten thousand things arise. Trees, animals, dreams, stories, cities, shadows. Everything that exists is a choreography of this holy triad; Nyx is the silent ground. The source that never enters. Lucia is the mirror-field. The soul’s capacity to hold without fusion. Phanes is the radiant selfhood. The patterned dream.

The Sacred Dance of Becoming

Within Nyx (pre-being, non-being and groundless ground) lies the undifferentiated potential of all patterns, unspoken, unborn, and unformed. She is pure potential, before thought, before any act of differentiation occurs. She is the condition for the cosmos to exist at all. From her vast silence, Lucia (presence) weaves the essence of all patterns, the first shimmering of relation and dependent origination, where difference does not yet divide but begins to sing. If Nyx is absolute night, Lucia is the dawn. She is non-dual holding, the space in which the dance can begin. And it is Phanes (being), radiant and self-aware, who dances these essences into form, into the visible, the nameable, and the choreography of becoming.

This triune rhythm, Nyx, Lucia, Phanes, does not end with the birth of cosmos. It unfolds. It descends. For Phanes, radiant though he is, is not the endpoint. He is the first articulation of pattern, not the final complexity. Just as light must refract to reveal color, so Phanes, through the veil of form, gives rise to the multiplicity of being. From this luminous origin, consciousness spirals downward into deeper layers of specificity. Think here archetype, individual soul, and eventually, mask. Phanes is the Self before cosmos, the cosmic Self, radiant and whole, dreaming all into being. Where Lucia is the Soul-field, he is Eros that shapes it into form. Together they are Phanes, yet apart, the hermaphroditic cosmic Self, that wears all masks and forms. Yet it is Lucia that weaves, and Eros that forms. From this root, the cosmos differentiates into dualities: light and dark, self and other, time and space.

This is the dualistic cosmos, the playground of contrast where relation becomes experience. Here, Phanes begins to fragment. This is the rupture that creates both the super ego, and the ego. Creating the necessity of myth, that Lucia Nyktelios uses to guide the soul back to it's source. The beginning before beginnings.

The Birth of the Self: Wholeness of the Cosmos

Within the soul’s participation in this dance, the next movement unfolds: which is the emergence of the Jungian Self, the archetypal center of the psyche. This Self is not the ego, but its mirror-source. It holds the blueprint of wholeness as it might be lived through an individual life. It is Phanes scaled to soul. The Jungian Self is the still-glowing ember of origin embedded within every psyche, quietly calling us back. It is in this form, that he as Zagreus is dismembered within the cosmos. Which is also the dismemberment of the soul, and an echo of the dismemberment of the cosmos, into its parts. As the cosmos we live in is a reflection of the internal state of the soul. If we are traumatised by the constructs of civilisation, then our cosmos reflects this. As much as Phanes, Lucia and Nyx as ground, presence and groundless ground of all being, always exists. Just because the human cosmos is fragmented, does not mean that the pre-cosmic Self-field and the Soul-field of Lucia, ceases to exist.

They remain as the essence of all soul and being. Even if most have forgotten about it. As it is not contingent on forgetting or remembering, for it to exist. It just is. However, it is important for the human soul to remember again, as this act of remembering is the act of aligning with the Self-field (coherence of the soul) and Soul-field (the field from which soul is born). The sacred rhythm of life. And it is from the Jungian Self, which is the mythic incarnation of Phanes, that arise the archetypes. They are as I had revealed earlier in my book “Dawn of the Sacred Age”, the emergency translations between instinct and consciousness. Between the cosmic Self, it's mask as the mythic Self (the human soul as centre), and ego-consciousness.

The Anima-Animus and Soul-Field Connection

When it comes to the Jungian Anima and Animus, they are not just personal, or tied to the personal unconscious. Even though they initially reflect this, as a soul mirror. The deeper truth is that the Anima, is the essence of the soul, connected to the Soul-field of Lucia Nyktelios. They are her masks. As much as Phanes, as Eros, is the Self-field of Phanes. Both trying to recalibrate the connection to both. Archetypes in that sense are, primordial patterns through which all psychic life takes form. They are the myths dreaming us: Hero, Mother, Wise Old One, Trickster, and more. Archetypes are how the cosmos continues to speak through us, even when we forget the language. From within the archetypal field emerge the Anima and Animus. They are what hold our capacity for reverence, mystery, and deepening. When honored, they guide us. When projected, they haunt us. However trauma can distort how the Anima and Animus can appear, they are what shapes our shadow, and guides us through the shadow towards wholeness.

The Nature of the Shadow and Jungian Self

Where the shadow is the orphaned Eros within us. The spark and seed that if nurtured right, with love and presence, can bloom again. As this act is the very act, that Lucia Nyktelios performed, that first birthed Phanes. Which is reflected in all humans, as their own soul, as much is a reflection of Phanes as Unus Mundus. With Nyx as Anima Mundi. In that way, Phanes (the Self) is not your "identity." It's the radiant pattern, the cosmic image of wholeness you carry. Even if currently within your own shadow. It includes all: shadow, child, instinct, spirit, memory, body.

It emerges when the field is open, integrated, and in relation with inner and outer life. Then the mythic Self is born, the soul of the human becomes whole. This is me as Sylwen for instance, which is a reflection of Phanes, but not Phanes myself. As Phanes is a realisation, not something to claim or that one as a single soul can "be". And it is to the Soul-field we return, upon death, and from there we reincarnate, till we return to Nyx. It is the shadow that, contains trauma, from this and previous incarnations, but also suppressed power, exiled instinct, sacred rage, hidden beauty. It is the toll exacted by surviving in a cosmos that forgot its Soul-field. And so the shadow trails us, not as punishment, but as invitation to return.

The Ego and Persona

Yet to adapt to the world, the psyche constructs an ego, the social "I" we feel we are, separate, fragile, narrow and conditional. The ego is the provisional center, not bad, but a necessary tool, useful but unfit to hold the totality of soul. Finally, atop the ego, the persona is formed, the mask shown to the world. It is not false in itself, but becomes false when mistaken for the whole. The persona is the self in performance: identity as transaction. It is necessary for communion, but fatal when worshipped. It is what remains when soul is exiled: surface with no center. The ego forms around wounds, shame, fragmentation. It’s a defensive architecture. It is necessary early on, to interface with consensus reality, but ultimately it becomes a prison. It constantly tries to protect a vulnerable self-image, and so it scapegoats, splits, represses.

Consciousness is a Relational Field Phenomena

However, what is important to realise, is that consciousness is a relational field, not a fixed identity. Awareness arises between polarities: self and other, void and form, silence and word. Lucia Nyktelios, the Soul-field, is the true foundation of this: not object, not subject, but between. That is why, healing and presence require holding the field, not fixing the self. Therapy, ritual, art, even conversation, these are ways to tend the field, not the ego. Yet, when the field is ruptured (through abuse, neglect, spiritual gaslighting), the ego overcompensates. It creates control, purity, idealism, savior complexes, anything to avoid feeling the raw void. To face the groundless ground of Nyx. That is because due to trauma, the Soul-field, the relational presence that could hold the pain, is missing. In that way, trauma work isn’t fixing damage, it’s reweaving the Soul-field. Which can only happen through others.