In Search of the Divine Feminine
A World Behind the World
I am really appreciative of those who are celebrating the Sovereignty goddess with me. For me personally she is really important. When doing research for what became my book, which was originally just for my own healing journey, reconstructing her touched deeply on me.
I am a highly right brain dominant man, and for a long time this essence of my being was not really seen or appreciated. What Jungian psychology would call the Anima. Which I am deeply attuned to. I also remember as a child feeling that this aspect of myself, connected to my Anima, was never allowed to be part of me for a long time. Representing my deep emotional and intuitive side. When working through this, in recent dreams I saw myself as a young boy, and this aspect of myself being outside the body. Not really part of it. Which left me with a deep sense of emptiness. Until recently in the past three years, where I have started to reclaim this. All that which the traditional sense of "society" deems unfit for a man.
I have had a real lack of emotional nurture as a child. For me it felt like the mother archetype had died and was just completely absent. So for quite some time I have grieved the death of the Great Mother. When a year ago I then reconstructed the Sovereignty Goddess in her full undistorted form, beyond the toned down egoic narratives. To really try to restore her to her full glory, I have to admit that writing about her drove me to tears. It was like finding a treasure buried deep for aeons, a patch of green amidst the cold of the arctic. Which is where I laid myself down into the moss.
So for me the Sovereignty goddess feels super important. Whilst I did the Koryos (wolf warrior) rituals in the forest for the past years, similarly to the ancient cultures, I was both dedicated to Zagreus (a deity of death, the underworld and wilderness), Yemo in the Proto-Indo-European sense, and the Sovereignty Goddess. Something that turned out to be historically accurate. As the Proto-Indo-European Koryos were actually in their various manifestations dedicated to both. Like how the Fianna of Ireland were dedicated to the Morrigan. The Fianna served as a rite of passage into manhood and have parallels with similar young warrior bands in other early European cultures.
The actual Fianna warrior bands also have been connected to the Morrígan, who had been also connected to a ritual surrounding dog sacrifice (known to be a Koryos ritual). One such example of a link between them is found at the burnt mound sites known as “the cooking pit of the Mórrígan”. These sites are found in wild areas, and are associated with outsiders such as the Fianna, as well as with the hunting of deer. Another site called “the two breasts of the Mórrígan"), a pair of hills in Meath County, further is suggested by scholars as a probable link between her and the Fianna as a sort of tutelary goddess, also known as a guardian deity. For me Feronia has been such a guiding figure, and I owe her my freedom and my life. So my writings are my way to honour her, and show my gratitude for her. Next to sharing her message of liberation and empowerment with all who come across the story of the Goddess.
